NO, IT WILL.
If I lose my memories,,,I would be like a very young child in a very old body and not be able to have mental control or memory of my present state and my future.
Isn't it scary that I don't even know what is me?
What are the first things I have to do?
My brain would explode with all those self-destroy questions.
Strangers are everywhere! I'll be afraid of anything including myself. Feeling so vulnerable and fragile. Like someone can turn their back on you and stab you with a dagger out of sudden. Isn't it funny if 'TRUST' would be just a word? I have nothing to put my trust on. One second, strangers who called themselves my family would say 'Don't worry, baby. We will help you.' while for the other seconds, I would doubt,,what if, they aren't really my family?
My mind is just like a blank paper with absolutely no recollection of my family,friends or of myself.
Life would be terrifying with so much uncertainty at every step. My initial reaction would be sadness of having lost wonderful memories.Not just the important events which happened in my life but also the events of which I was a part of. It would be heartbreaking to know that there is no guarantee that I can live my life with any sense of the past.
No starting point!! I have lost in a black hole and it seems to stretch into infinity. Everyday, I would live my life as what everyone told me to do like a robot. For every single, little, subtle thing, I have to do it all over again and it'll be so hard to even breathe. Besides, I would never know if the choices I take may be the best for me as I won't remember how I lived my life back in the past. There would always be doubt on what are the things that significant and things that didn't matter at all. I might live fearfully, afraid of things that I don't know and days after.
However,, I can't refuse the benefits that I can get if I lose my memories completely...
Like a New Born, I can create a brand new me. Changing my attitude might not be a bad idea. I would learn to be more kind for who knows I might be a mean girl once upon a time. I will live my life carefree! Not remembering the burden of the past and other stupids and regretful things I might do would help me a lot to survive this life. There are people who can't figure out their future just because they are afraid of their past.
Making a lot of new friends. Maybe they are just my old buddies who I had forgotten, but I can assume that I'm moving to a new place and need to have a fresh start. Grow up being a strong girl is not an option. For me to live this tiring yet sweet life,, this require bundles of strength to encourage me throughout this world. I would experience many new things that may haven't being done by anyone else but me. Although it might be difficult and exhausting, I would never give up in finding myself. A lot of things out there are waiting for me to be discovered. My primary focus would be on being independent enough to make my life normal as it used to be. It would be like growing up all again Version 2.0...
After looking through all this possibilities,,, all I can sum up is,
MY WHOLE LIFE WILL BE A NEW GREAT ADVENTURE
if I lose my memories completely.
"Memory is the most important function of the brain…above all others. Without it, each and every moment, of life, would have little or no connection with other moments...on both voluntary and involuntary levels."
You know what? Hmmm... I had wished myself to lost my memory once. It is funny, right? Haha... When I read your entry, I can imagine myself in your story. Thanks for your incredible entry. It is really interesting
ReplyDeletedont afraid to be someone new, because everyone deserves a second chance.
ReplyDeleteOf course our life will be really different if we lose our memory..it will never be same like we used to be before although we can live our life with our love one. I could not imagine how my life would be if i lose my memory..hmm, could i be strong enough..
ReplyDeleteLosing memories is one of my biggest fright. I can't imagine myself. It would be terrifying to wake up. I hope if I happen to have this problem, you will be by my side. Will you?
ReplyDeleteAs for me, I think losing memory ain't that bad because I can start all over again as the new me.
ReplyDeletei wish don't lose my memory because i don't want to forget all of our sweet memory
ReplyDeleteI will start my new life and will live with people who love me. But at the same time, I also fear to accept the fact about my old self.
ReplyDeletenice story, Raz!!!
ReplyDeleteIt's quite challenging to live a life as an amnesiac. Hopefully, you don't have to go through it.
ReplyDeleteHow I wish that I could only remember all the memories that mean a lots to me and forget the memories that haunt me. Hahahaa...
ReplyDeletearggg.. i can't imagine if that happen to me.. but,sometimes i also want to lost all my memory because to me it's better for me to forget what happen to me and start the new ones. btw, nice story raz! :)
ReplyDeletehow i wish i lost my memory completely too raz..... and restart our sweet memories together :D
ReplyDeleteWishing that I can forget all my problems and be a happy go lucky person :)
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine if i loss my memory. Btw nice story raz.
ReplyDeleteI don't know what am I will be if I face that..arghhh...but sometimes it's also can give me benefits..haha..nice story raz
ReplyDeleteI don't know what am I will be if I face that..arghhh...but sometimes it's also can give me benefits..haha..nice story raz
ReplyDeleteLosing my memories? Hmm. I don't how I am if one day I am on that situation. Can i be strong? Can i start my life all over again? By the way,great entry raz.
ReplyDeleteMemories are kept in one's life to act as reminders and cautions. Aren't we lucky to have such healthy and strong brain? Treasure the most precious organ as it helps us sane and sensible. Avoid from judging people who have totally lost their memory.
ReplyDeleteYes. It will be totally different because in my opinion, I can forget all my past mistakes and I can be a new version of me.
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