I Got That A Lot

快乐的农历年!!!

Hihihi...

Frankly, I don't really know if this is correct or not. Whatever it is,, Happy Chinese New Year! I wish you good health and lasting prosperity. 

Long time no entries and today, I want to write about things that I always get. Hard for me to find the idea as I have to reflect on myself. However, thanks to someone special, now I have a thing to write. 

Probably, every one who knows me or the one who said 'Yeah, I kind of noticing that girl',,, likely to have and always have this thought.

She is quiet. 

I shall not argue that. True.
It always be everybody first impression about me. I am a silent and discreet person. Barely talk or show up what she think. Pros and cons everywhere.

Actually, whenever I'm in a conversation, I totally fall into my deep thinking. I love to think of other reasons and consequences if things could happen in other ways what are the truth about it. It looks like I live in my own fantasies. I developed this since kid and grown up becoming a habit. Fine, I feel so vulnerable now.

People always catch me off guard telling I like to daydreaming. I've got no answer to that. Yes or no. I guess both. So, I'll just pay them a smile. Not interesting in telling them the truth of my thought.
To those people, ain't because you're not precious but the matters I involved aren't important for you to know. Some things are better left unsaid.

Although I seem to dwell into my virtual thinking so much. It is so crucial to wake up. Often, I woke up too late. Realized on things that vital when everything had reached its end. A change need to be around the corner. Recently, I started to be more conscious with my surrounding. I'm 19 (still 18 actually) and to always live in an 'imagination' is a terrible notion. My present self is more important rather than an artificial life. I have to live with my present and future so I need to stop thinking about things that aren't going to happen.

My characters are not my personalities. This all that I can sum up. Get to know me and you'll be far after surprise.

Since I was 10, I've this dream inside of me. Everyone I met said, I couldn't achieve that dream. Yet, until now I believe, things could happen if we'd got the chance. In this case, luck is the key to the door. Even now, I'm still believe in that dream if only I shall have that luck. I got that a lot- You're dream is impossible. It is a dream that I never want to give up but have to let go. Some decisions will be so regretful as we make it but what makes life without any remorse,indeed.