I Got That A Lot

快乐的农历年!!!

Hihihi...

Frankly, I don't really know if this is correct or not. Whatever it is,, Happy Chinese New Year! I wish you good health and lasting prosperity. 

Long time no entries and today, I want to write about things that I always get. Hard for me to find the idea as I have to reflect on myself. However, thanks to someone special, now I have a thing to write. 

Probably, every one who knows me or the one who said 'Yeah, I kind of noticing that girl',,, likely to have and always have this thought.

She is quiet. 

I shall not argue that. True.
It always be everybody first impression about me. I am a silent and discreet person. Barely talk or show up what she think. Pros and cons everywhere.

Actually, whenever I'm in a conversation, I totally fall into my deep thinking. I love to think of other reasons and consequences if things could happen in other ways what are the truth about it. It looks like I live in my own fantasies. I developed this since kid and grown up becoming a habit. Fine, I feel so vulnerable now.

People always catch me off guard telling I like to daydreaming. I've got no answer to that. Yes or no. I guess both. So, I'll just pay them a smile. Not interesting in telling them the truth of my thought.
To those people, ain't because you're not precious but the matters I involved aren't important for you to know. Some things are better left unsaid.

Although I seem to dwell into my virtual thinking so much. It is so crucial to wake up. Often, I woke up too late. Realized on things that vital when everything had reached its end. A change need to be around the corner. Recently, I started to be more conscious with my surrounding. I'm 19 (still 18 actually) and to always live in an 'imagination' is a terrible notion. My present self is more important rather than an artificial life. I have to live with my present and future so I need to stop thinking about things that aren't going to happen.

My characters are not my personalities. This all that I can sum up. Get to know me and you'll be far after surprise.

Since I was 10, I've this dream inside of me. Everyone I met said, I couldn't achieve that dream. Yet, until now I believe, things could happen if we'd got the chance. In this case, luck is the key to the door. Even now, I'm still believe in that dream if only I shall have that luck. I got that a lot- You're dream is impossible. It is a dream that I never want to give up but have to let go. Some decisions will be so regretful as we make it but what makes life without any remorse,indeed.

 

Making Judgement

16th year of the 3rd millennium. Welcome, amigo!!!

Well,well,well... I bet you guys already waiting for this upcoming story...

We, people really love to judge others. Sometimes, we judge because we are envy, jealous, happy, sad or afraid. This is us. Human.

I also have this illness called Judgmental Disorder.

Once upon a while,,,

I was on a subway headed home when an old man come in and sit in front of me. He wore a long black coat with a hat. I smiled but he looked at me like I'm The Wanted. The atmosphere felt so uncomfortable in a weird way. 

When the old man adjusted his hat, I noticed her scarred face. Like a nightmare, I felt insecure and scared. Looking around and realized that the subway was full with emptied seats. Why this 'Grim Reaper' wanna seat near me? What if he has bad intentions? 

There were two women around 30's and a man in 20's who was in hibernation. I decided to move near their seats when the women stood up. The subway had stopped and this was far away from my stop. Oh, no! Panic attacked me and I was really afraid. As the women went out, a group of three big guys entered the subway. What a lucky night! I am the prey now. 

My brilliant little mind started to make assumptions. What if, what if, and what if...

Seriously, I did not know how or what to do. I looked at the old man and saw his eyes on me. Tears formed in my eyes. I don't want to be home late again,,huhu. God, please help me! 

One of the big guys saw me and instructed his friends to go near me. Do you ever feel like going into a haunted house and you don't know where are the ghosts going to appear? This is what I feel right now. 

"Hello, pretty girl. Alone tonight?". I started to cry. This was when I saw the old man smirk and I was full with anger as I knew, the old man must be one of them. A plan, right? I wanted to scream with hatred but the fear cannot be avoid. "Wanna join us? We are going to a great party tonight."

A tattooed guy tried to touch my hand when a sudden punch hit him on the cheek. Not only me, but the big guys also surprised. "May I join the party?", said the old man. Out of sudden, someone pull me up and shocked to see the 'hibernate' man was armed. Two other armed man entered our coach. I was so puzzled and soon realized that the big guys were the Grim Reapers.

However, the most tragic truth is the old man whose face full with scars is one of the retire soldiers who fought for our country. He is the one who make a report about the Grim Reapers, a group of man that did kidnapped people and sold them.

Remember: Don't judge people before you're truly know them. The truth might surprised you.